Well Penny this is probably one of the hardest things I have had to write ever. I sat by your side today and I didn't know what to say to you. You should be out in town with your friends and your free ritzy tickets. Thats what we had when we turned 18. I think they have shut down now but the point remains. It just doesn't feel the same without you here. I speak to you in my mind from time to time. But I guess or hope you know that anyway. love you always, Chris .